What my future holds....

what my future holds...

* I know 2012 wont wipe me out… I have a beautiful future ahead of me*my visualization…. I’ll someday have two or more beautiful babies haha and I’ll build a tree house-house! three stories high( I’ll paint it yellow), with a fourth on top,one room over looking the sea and place where I live around me. It’ll be my painting, meditation naked room where I go for me time.*I’m thinking tropical area*
I’ll have a garden, and surfboard/skateboard shaping room
beautiful gardens  and I’ll cook, have a hammock and be so happy… all the while writing a book :)- I’ll have chickens and a lama … some pups and a kitty
and hopefully an amazing husband who will love that I walk around half naked all day
I’ll travel and take my family. I want at least two boys maybe a girl…and more…maybe.I will take a million photos of my kids, let them explore everything! I will be the best mommy ever, un-conditional love. Someday
I will look at my husband everyday, appreciating everything around me that got us where we are. I will tell him I love him all the time, and I will be Honest. Faithful. Compassionate. Worthy of his love. and he will be worthy of mine.
This will be the perfect unending to my life.
I will teach my children that they are strong… No drug will fix their problem, No pain is too unbearable not to survive. That getting by is not an option, but prevailing is key. I want to love my children so they will know love.
I want my sons to know respect for woman, that a woman is a goddess and should be honored… but that a woman should have class, self respect and honor.
I want my daughter to know self-worth. That she is beautiful without boundaries, however, her beauty should be valued. She should walk with pride, and a humble heart. That a free spirit is okay, that being different is a gift!
My children will know how I grew up, they will know about my mom and her struggles. They will appreciate what they are given; home, clothes and food. And I will teach them that.
My husband may not understand me, but will love me. He will be active, adventurous with me. I want him to travel… with or without me. When we are apart from one another we will trust one another. I will love that he is independent. I will massage him when he is sore, and I will surprise him when he is least aware. I will try and be sexy for him.
I will do yoga, and slack line. I will hula hoop pregnant and do lots of headstands.
I wont be afraid of change, I will care for myself when I am ill. I will love my self,  and learn self worth. I will become a woman I am. I will respect and honor my body. I will forgive. I will be successful. I will be an amazing mother. I will forever ride my skateboard till I die. I will travel and explore. I will always think positive even when the most un-positive, I will be positive!