SPEAK UP.

if you can't say it out loud, if you can't communicate it...
then it shouldn't be.
find the balance once again.
as the saying goes "check yourself, before you wreck yourself."
become human again. raw. open.
there's the beginning to healing, when you release the woes.

-mj

critical thinking.

counter-acting a potion, falling off the ledge
broken bottle, the glass in shards on this old wood floor
as my bare feet dance on every splitting edge...

some beauty to this dance. a red drop turns to a river
reaching, stretching my body from earth
bending back with grace, spinning through all the glass slivers
these arched feet hold my balance, teaching muscles to learn 

As the world goes round an axis, dodging the bullets of universal powers
the human heart opens both vessels, pulsing in rhythm
with every false creation of passion we portray it turns to a prey of the love hour
tricking the mind to heal faster, stronger... dodging for the bullets of universal freedom

lost in my mind

A Master Buddhist says to his pupil- "You have become thoughtless"
The pupil Buddhist -" Thank you master."

A dear friend enrolled himself in an Ashram hoping to find himself. His teacher Swami Sitaramananda asked him," When was the last time you sang? When was the last time you danced?"

There is a choice in your feelings. Whether you feel depressed, in your head, in-capable of success and there is no present idea of how your future will grow... remind your self to breathe. Turn on a song that has always instilled a good place to help you come out of that dark moment. Moment. <--- that is what is happening. Your mind is so strong.. beyond human understanding, and you have a choice on how you feel in this moment. Depression is only an illness if you allow it( YOU MAKE YOUR OWN REALITY). Happiness is not just a choice, not a how, not a person. It is a moment as well. If you choose to live a lifestyle, a moment, do not make it an excuse to challenge your self or others to live that way, or to change you. Try to grow. grow out of what your stubborn self has clung to. If you want to be happy... BE HAPPY. Start now. if you want to be sad... learn to be sad. Be these moments, are just moments. Appreciate each feeling, every person. every choice... there is a purpose for your choice that you have not seen mapped out yet. :) I hope I wrote this correctly, presently my mind is a little tossed and over whelmed. Give me your insight, share your love and advice, I'd be so grateful for more words then just my own teachings.

- MJ 2012

Thank you Sam Luna

My friend describes me... as I get in my head, confused on my path... He tells me I belong and writes this :
Radiant you walk through the world
Shining light
Singing songs of fairy tales and broken moonlight
Fairys fly yet on this earth you glide
Sprinkling thoughts like sands in time

exactly that feeling...

ouch.
you've got to be fucking kidding me.

yes. i listened to my gut. yes. it was fucking right.
this ... this is what something, was telling me.

just COMMUNICATE.
what the fuck.
ouch. fucking. fuck . fuck.
that word, for some reason, right now.
so perfectly fitting.
FUCK

step. 1. breathe.
step 2. complete
step 3. salt water. not tears. actual ocean. NOW
step 4. forget. out of sight out of mind. no words. nothing.
step 5. chin up.
step 6. breathe. i'm fine. will be. always. have.
step 7. expected.... the expected. from the circle of fuck. the same lesson... just a little louder.
a little heavier...

i think i think too much.... that thinking came in handy.
fuck.  I'm glad that yesterday I danced so hard my body hurt, because today it wont hurt as much.
i just need to remember to breathe.

no fucking memory, no why, what if's, nothing bullshit. just. breathe.
get on with a different moment. done.
 fuck this feels good to write, to get off my fucking chest.

haven't fucking written like this in ages... never openly at least... this time won't take as long to heal.
this time. i won't care anymore. FUCK.

sex:more than---

“It’s easy to take off your clothes and have sex. People do it all the time. But opening up your soul to someone, letting them into your spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes, dreams… that is being naked.”
― Rob Bell

think think think

i think too much, i think. continually rationalizing my own words. seeking advice for words that are not my own in yet regretting what the words are showing, still not the words i would have used. again over analyzing the sentences streaming. repeating and rotating around in this mind of uncivil strange filled thoughts. still repeating my own sentences reflecting on a positive mentality, that i-oh-so often preach. the preaching in which most would discomfort and stray there ears from hearing, in yet when speaking words of light and love all the minds seem to strike to understand and feel this slight trace of human right, discovering how simple the process is to change. A change that the world is screaming for, a scream where love, healing, and your soul is restored. thoughts in my head are now healing. again the healing a gift of knowledge for my growth in these confusing but beautiful days of enlightenment. -- enjoy the tangents of life. whether with words, romances, readings or adventures.... go on a tangent. xxomj
March 25th, 2012

Soulmate

free style

A mirror a reflection of my true manifestation. no question of my true intention for the highest, greatest destination. The universe finds my reflection. seeking love, light and power of creation. Overflowing conscious minds alike we connect together and revitalize our time, sharing the ways of the natives never held captive by entrapment, always having trust in the earth and kin. always givin, no sin-in, end or beginnin. we are one in the hearts, a unity a passionate community reaching together for sanctity, setting roots for humanity ahead of our time to live divine on earth clean of crime, gracious minds, nourishing every kind, no suffering or times of trying. No lies or lying just love and purifying. Trust in the divine and you'll come to find growth, passion and your life's main attraction.
2012 April 9th, 2012

namaste' ☼ I honor the place within you of love, of light, of truth, of peace; I honor the place within you, where, when you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us. ∞

Speak with love

I am so fascinated with the growth of humanity. Through love, finding balance, the willing to learn, to educate, to speak truth, how we are beginning to understand the spiritual world that has and will always be the center of humanity. We are all coming together. There is no speed in which we move, it is flow. Trust the flow of life and know " WE ARE THE CHANGE, WE WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD." It's working. Each person that changes the way they speak, speak with love, with life, with passion and light. You are changing the world! Your voice is a reflection of who you want to be... Who are you? "IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE, THAN YOU DON'T KNOW WHO YOU'RE NOT!" So try today, right now. Try to be the beginning of this revolution of love. WE are the CONSCIOUS. THIS IS 2012... The end of selfless, and unforgiving histories. This is the BEGINNING of CONSCIOUS AWAKENING! Begin your internal healing. No more excuses ♥ You are divine, you are unified. Your pain is now your blessings, the reason to begin your growth to that incredible human you are. ∞Namaste'... ∞ and PLEASE Speak up! ♥ YOU ARE LOVED TO THE STARS AND BEYOND ♥ ∞

new world

Only does the process, begin within. Myself. discovering will power over the desire hour. overcoming the mind going sour. rediscovering. Everyday is thee moment, projecting self-love, so the self will trust another one. Passion grows balanced and the mirror is challenged to understand what's in every woman and man's mind. This bonding of a stable kind creates a healthy time. Looking around, the conscious flow in every blood line, now aware of sincerity in all human- kind. Start today. Start the love in every way, just one word. every word you say will create our destiny, so speak with and love will surround everyone in every way.
∞ NAMASTE' ∞- "I honor the place within you where the entire Universe resides; I honor the place within you of love, of light, of truth, of peace; I honor the place within you, where, when you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us." - Mj writing ramble '12

New heart

All my loving, your thoughts slowly come undone
Organizing all the woes, the moon to sun
Dancing on Gaia's love, the troubles melted away
A magnet strikes with lightning on each word you say,
Your lips hit the drums to my heart,
Each beat a wild rhythm with no beginning or start
Catch me, take my sinful thoughts
Turn my body like a boiling pot
The steam in our movements, shaking without control
Animalistic, releasing passion from the soul

Travel outside the comfort zone, all human kind too well known
Let our minds expand beyond, country land, state or home
Weighing knowledge, explore this being while it's solid.
Expanding mind, and body, now releasing hearts to grow.

written by :Mandy Jane