thoughts for my days

2. thoughts for my days

   I feel trapped, suffocated, and over whelmed.

   The wait is getting too much.

   fear is getting to me

   … the fear of not knowing where I’ll ever end up.

   Fear of not finding the stabliity that I so badly have always craved…

   The fear the if I don’t make it, what will my future be?

   I’m getting lost in my own head as usual, but lately, I feel too much like I have nothing to loose…

   I wish I could see myself the way others do. These thoughts should be trapped in my own head, not written for others to read, but then again… doesnt everyone have these thoughts at some point..

   What do I have to loose?

   If I write what I feel, If I leave for good, If I just jump.

   To find a new way to think, and to live.

   To learn on this path, to love myself. 

   That’s my biggest struggle.

   If I just keep this mentality of thinking positive, hoping for the best, then maybe I’ll make it just a little longer.